Jan 3rd 2013

i woke up furious.


Dear lobster.
i watched a video of a preacher, who asked "how do you think of your husband"....


"A wife is incredibly powerful in the life of her husband. The wife is to respect her husband (Eph. 5:33), which means “to notice, regard, honor, prefer, defer to, encourage, love, and admire” him. A respectful wife has a head of respect (How do you think about your husband?), a heart of respect (How do you feel about your husband? What do you say about him?), and hands of respect (What do you do for your husband?). A disrespectful wife may be silent and compliant, or loud and contentious. Still, it is possible to disagree respectfully. Do you respect your husband?"

Whoa! shame. on. me. i dont know how i think of you. but i know my words haven't been "life giving" i have just been angry. and i didn't want to give it up. worse yet, i was selfish and hurt the person i love. i haven't been paying attention to how i thought of you and when i would i would want to hide it.

I do have good thoughts towards you. not as many as i should but i will work on that everyday. weather you come back to me or not.

I have faith in you
I am proud of you

I love you always. BG♥

songs today:
Right here waiting for you by Richard marx
Not over you by Gavin Degraw