Thoughts.

If you took the time to look at the reason behind your feelings, could you really say it is sound. There is no way no how things could change.

Imaturity can growup.
Influences can change.
Anger subsides.
Hurts can be forgiven.

I am looking inside myself, why, why not, what is the whole hearted motives of my feelings. What I can tell you is this.

I let the world be louder than me. I always feel like majority rules and to be different is unforgiveable. In my head I would say "we can't do this" "this is wrong" but deep in my heart nothing else will ever be right.

Life goes on. I've already experienced that I can live without you. But you, will always be missing from my days. From the moments we could share and the experiences I would want with you. You aren't there. I'm not afraid to be alone. I no longer fear I can't make it without you. Those things come one step at a time. But the desire for us to reconcile will always be there.

What I need you to understand is love isn't just love. It isn't a light feeling that is good in all ways. It is an ancor that exsists. That is heavy but can bear the weight of any ship. The good feelings are there in vapor, they dance in the wind but when the road gets hard, the ancor wont move or change.

I deeply love you. Love love. Not always the good feelings love, we are human. But truely, deeply, with every fiber of my being love you.

I have faith in you.
I am proud of you.

I will always love you. BG <3